Well, guys it's started the new academic year. And my last one and a half years at the university. I don't even know what I'm feeling right now. I don't want nothing at all. It feels like life for me makes no sense. Continue to live with strange thoughts, hopes, dreams, and forget about reality. I used was really happy, if I was considered mad, locked in a small room and just look at them. At that own little world in my head. I know it sounds too childish and stupid. But at least I don't feel alone. Each time, back in the real world, the real problems I feel killed, helpless and lonely as never before. It's really hard all my life to trust others, expect them to trust and to be thrown. Yes, I totally uninteresting person, I can not keep up the conversation or chatter incessantly to anyone uninteresting topics. Unconsciously, I can annoy peopleif only not be thrown. I'm tired. Tired of every day of my life to live in the deepest solitude. And no matter what I did, I didn't get out of this shit.
Sorry for the whining.